Obviously, I can't speak to exactly why your heart felt burdened to take time alone, but perhaps with the timing of your death anniversary and Christ's death and resurrection on your mind, God may be wanting to remind you of the sacredness of your life and your new life in Christ. You don't need to explain to anyone or even be able to nail it down yourself, but you felt called to retreat alone and spend time with God while the emotions are fresh and raw. That's never the wrong answer.
I’ve experienced something similar to what you shared today. It was recently I felt this way. I still don’t understand exactly why I felt that way, but all I knew is I couldn’t run from it; just walk through it and pray God would open the door to my heart to receive His wisdom. Depending upon the gravity of the heaviness I experience, I sometimes want to stop trying, but I’m glad I don’t. Personally, I take it to God and most of the time I’ve found He is preparing me for the next steps ahead. It requires from me surrendering even more to release the weight from me to Him. I’m not sure if this makes sense, but it’s very hard to put into words. My mind cannot fathom the weight of all our sin and shame that Jesus carried to the cross so we could be pronounced not guilty and set free. This is the greatest act of love shown to us all, yet it is so hard for some to receive. My prayers are with you. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Donny we all need alone time, I’ve been where you are and what you are feeling, I personally believe we all need a time to go within, to contemplate to be alone and still we all need solace, after a while we come out recharged and refreshed with a new perspective on life also there is such a thing as PTSD reliving the trauma you went through and trying to understand it .. I personally think it’s a good thing to go within and be quiet with one’s self
I also like intimate gatherings I do-not like crowds either 🤷♀️.. wishing you well and stop questioning yourself
Where you where walking looked absolutely beautiful being one with nature in all of Gods glory is wonderful …
What a lovely prayer walk with the sounds of nature around you. I like being alone to sort my problems because if you involve others it can get messy for you and for all. I prefer to be guided by listening in silence. It usually works out the way I had hoped. Blessings!
I love the birds, the distinct call of the cardinal. I heard blue jays as well. I prefer being alone. I'm surrounded by my grandchildren some of whom live with me. But I like prayer walks where I'm not exactly alone but with God and His creation.
The place I can think can cause us to be in doubt or down is the adversary. Just like Job we just have so much fall on us we go by our feelings. It is hard to be strong all the time.
Praying for you to have clarity on your feelings. I would say to spend time in the Word and pray for guidance. We can all give you answers, but you need guidance from God, not us. I am a people-person, not a loner. But, I think God wants us to be alone sometimes so He can really "talk to us." Listen to Him, He will lead you. As always, praying for you
Donny I will be praying with you and thank you for sharing with us .Trust Your Heart Know your worth and don't compromise on what truly matters. Stay true to yourself . Your heart guides you toward growth and fulfillment , follow its lead with conviction. Nurture what uplifts you, let go of what drains you, and honor your inner truth. Your heart is your constant companion, your guiding light. Trust it to navigate life's journey and lead you to your highest self. There’s no pause button for pain,no pause for healing, no moment when the world steps aside and allows us to mend ourselves.
Without a doubt there are times when our heart and our thoughts tell us to quiet and get still. For myself - in my people pleasing years I would find ways to keep busy or be around people all the time. The thing I realize now, is that though I wanted people around me, I was not making connections with them. It was a facade of someone who I know today, I am not. Since, 2022 when my mind and body shutdown and was overcome by depression and anxiety I have learned that I have to be willing to listen to the inner voice that tells me, " you need to quiet and you need to be still."
Through much reflection and growth I have found myself many times more peaceful when I am alone or with just a select few people whom I can trust. I am not a person who talks a lot when I am around other people or even my family most times - but, I do become very overwhelmed in larger groups these days. I believe in my heart that God has allowed me to realize that it is OK that I am not at every event or participating in every meeting or family gathering. That what is better for me is to listen to my heart when it is telling me and trust, and follow where my faith leads.
I think our feelings originates in our soul (mind, will and emotions). That can be confusing when our heart feels differently or not in alignment with our Spirit. Jesus places a distinction between the two in Matt. 22:37 & Deut. 6:5. Usually when this happens to me, I find my soul desiring, sad, or missing something, that is visible or temporal. I tend to want to be more alone to try and figure out why I feel “off.” Often times though the more I turn to God and those who are my close brothers and sisters in Christ and spill my heart and thoughts with them the clearer I can see the patterns of my soul and get quickly realigned to where my soul, heart and spirit are back into alignment and I’m where God wants me to be.
I can relate to you on this topic. I prefer alone time when I am trying to process something heavy. Having someone whom you trust and can communicate with honesty is a blessing. However, some alone time can be a beautiful time of reflection. Thank you for the prayer walk.
First, I want to say: this is not a judgment, just the perception of an observant person lol
It seems to me that your behavior is confusing, I say this because in episode 113 you were "complaining" because some people were not inviting you to go out, etc.
And now you say that you want to distance yourself from people...
It seems that attitudes like this are warnings for a break.
You know, I say this with a little experience, because I paused my life for an entire year, searching for answers to 3 questions: who am I? what do I want? and what is God calling me to do?
I still haven't gotten answers to everything, but I have seen my journey with much more clarity.
Maybe that's what God wants from you, a break or maybe hit the road again....
I don't know why, but at this exact moment the story of Jonah and Nineveh came to mind...
Thanks for sharing how you are feeling. A line from an old hymn is take it to the Lord in prayer. There are times when I just want to be alone and sit and meditate.
Obviously, I can't speak to exactly why your heart felt burdened to take time alone, but perhaps with the timing of your death anniversary and Christ's death and resurrection on your mind, God may be wanting to remind you of the sacredness of your life and your new life in Christ. You don't need to explain to anyone or even be able to nail it down yourself, but you felt called to retreat alone and spend time with God while the emotions are fresh and raw. That's never the wrong answer.
I’ve experienced something similar to what you shared today. It was recently I felt this way. I still don’t understand exactly why I felt that way, but all I knew is I couldn’t run from it; just walk through it and pray God would open the door to my heart to receive His wisdom. Depending upon the gravity of the heaviness I experience, I sometimes want to stop trying, but I’m glad I don’t. Personally, I take it to God and most of the time I’ve found He is preparing me for the next steps ahead. It requires from me surrendering even more to release the weight from me to Him. I’m not sure if this makes sense, but it’s very hard to put into words. My mind cannot fathom the weight of all our sin and shame that Jesus carried to the cross so we could be pronounced not guilty and set free. This is the greatest act of love shown to us all, yet it is so hard for some to receive. My prayers are with you. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Donny we all need alone time, I’ve been where you are and what you are feeling, I personally believe we all need a time to go within, to contemplate to be alone and still we all need solace, after a while we come out recharged and refreshed with a new perspective on life also there is such a thing as PTSD reliving the trauma you went through and trying to understand it .. I personally think it’s a good thing to go within and be quiet with one’s self
I also like intimate gatherings I do-not like crowds either 🤷♀️.. wishing you well and stop questioning yourself
Where you where walking looked absolutely beautiful being one with nature in all of Gods glory is wonderful …
What a lovely prayer walk with the sounds of nature around you. I like being alone to sort my problems because if you involve others it can get messy for you and for all. I prefer to be guided by listening in silence. It usually works out the way I had hoped. Blessings!
I love the birds, the distinct call of the cardinal. I heard blue jays as well. I prefer being alone. I'm surrounded by my grandchildren some of whom live with me. But I like prayer walks where I'm not exactly alone but with God and His creation.
The place I can think can cause us to be in doubt or down is the adversary. Just like Job we just have so much fall on us we go by our feelings. It is hard to be strong all the time.
Oh, I forgot - remember Elijah. He got mad because he thought God had forgotten Him. Go back and read his story and be encouraged.
Praying for you to have clarity on your feelings. I would say to spend time in the Word and pray for guidance. We can all give you answers, but you need guidance from God, not us. I am a people-person, not a loner. But, I think God wants us to be alone sometimes so He can really "talk to us." Listen to Him, He will lead you. As always, praying for you
Donny I will be praying with you and thank you for sharing with us .Trust Your Heart Know your worth and don't compromise on what truly matters. Stay true to yourself . Your heart guides you toward growth and fulfillment , follow its lead with conviction. Nurture what uplifts you, let go of what drains you, and honor your inner truth. Your heart is your constant companion, your guiding light. Trust it to navigate life's journey and lead you to your highest self. There’s no pause button for pain,no pause for healing, no moment when the world steps aside and allows us to mend ourselves.
Without a doubt there are times when our heart and our thoughts tell us to quiet and get still. For myself - in my people pleasing years I would find ways to keep busy or be around people all the time. The thing I realize now, is that though I wanted people around me, I was not making connections with them. It was a facade of someone who I know today, I am not. Since, 2022 when my mind and body shutdown and was overcome by depression and anxiety I have learned that I have to be willing to listen to the inner voice that tells me, " you need to quiet and you need to be still."
Through much reflection and growth I have found myself many times more peaceful when I am alone or with just a select few people whom I can trust. I am not a person who talks a lot when I am around other people or even my family most times - but, I do become very overwhelmed in larger groups these days. I believe in my heart that God has allowed me to realize that it is OK that I am not at every event or participating in every meeting or family gathering. That what is better for me is to listen to my heart when it is telling me and trust, and follow where my faith leads.
Thank you for another thoughtful and honest walk.
Thank you Donny for your special prayer walk today. I always enjoy your walks! I’m praying for answers also.❤️✝️🐰
I think our feelings originates in our soul (mind, will and emotions). That can be confusing when our heart feels differently or not in alignment with our Spirit. Jesus places a distinction between the two in Matt. 22:37 & Deut. 6:5. Usually when this happens to me, I find my soul desiring, sad, or missing something, that is visible or temporal. I tend to want to be more alone to try and figure out why I feel “off.” Often times though the more I turn to God and those who are my close brothers and sisters in Christ and spill my heart and thoughts with them the clearer I can see the patterns of my soul and get quickly realigned to where my soul, heart and spirit are back into alignment and I’m where God wants me to be.
I can relate to you on this topic. I prefer alone time when I am trying to process something heavy. Having someone whom you trust and can communicate with honesty is a blessing. However, some alone time can be a beautiful time of reflection. Thank you for the prayer walk.
First, I want to say: this is not a judgment, just the perception of an observant person lol
It seems to me that your behavior is confusing, I say this because in episode 113 you were "complaining" because some people were not inviting you to go out, etc.
And now you say that you want to distance yourself from people...
It seems that attitudes like this are warnings for a break.
You know, I say this with a little experience, because I paused my life for an entire year, searching for answers to 3 questions: who am I? what do I want? and what is God calling me to do?
I still haven't gotten answers to everything, but I have seen my journey with much more clarity.
Maybe that's what God wants from you, a break or maybe hit the road again....
I don't know why, but at this exact moment the story of Jonah and Nineveh came to mind...
Anyway, I'm praying for you!
Happy Easter Don! ✝️🐣🐰
Thanks for sharing how you are feeling. A line from an old hymn is take it to the Lord in prayer. There are times when I just want to be alone and sit and meditate.